What if everything you thought you knew was wrong? I know everything has been more about love and relationships but that seems to be what makes the world go round. But honestly as much as people claim they don't regret things in life I feel like they're lying. It seems like everyone would have something that they're curious if they had done different would have changed their life. Thats what I'm talking about. What if fate is real and you somehow threw it off because of one simple decision. The fact that I think about these things on a daily basis truly shows I have entirely too much time on my hands.

What if that one person you were supposed to be with for the rest of your life, your "soul mate" if you will, you just by passed each other missed the memo, it got lost in the mail, decided to do something randomly different for a change. I'm not referring to the fling from the last post but old friends/lovers. Whether God has our entire lives already planned out to the minute or just major events sometimes I just wish he'd give me a GIANT sign that specifically said YOU'RE GOING THE RIGHT WAY or whisper in my ear telling me THE ONE. It's just so complicated and confusing to know whats right and wrong. What if I'm only meant to help people as a side project but I'm really meant to do something completely different but because I didn't follow through with something else I excelled at the entire plan was thrown off.

Back to "soul mates". I'm not even sure if I believe in them. To steal corny quotes that every girl says from Sex & the City "Maybe our girlfriends are our soulmates and guys are just people to have fun with" which I entirely agree with I have some of the best girl friends in the world who have been there for me through everything. But what if there was a guy that came into your life, you liked him at first and maybe he liked you but you sort of brushed it off. You were friends and over the years the friendship just got strong and stronger, ya know BEST FRIENDS. Yes I'm aware there's also a quote about guys and girls being friends but this is different... or so I'd like to think. Maybe back in the day oh lets say 8 years ago there was a chance for something that was completely overlooked. What now. It's 8 years later, you've had your ups and downs and even falling outs but that person continued to support you and be there for you no matter for... for the most part anyway. It's rare to find someone who's there for you all the time let alone for years at a time. You were those friends that told each other "I love you" and meant it. He told you he wouldn't be the person he is today if it weren't for you after explaining that your primary goal in life is to change one person's life. What are you supposed to make of something like that? As much as you push away and try to build the walls back up maybe they're really not meant to go back up. Maybe you're supposed to fall apart so you can fall together. You're not 14 anymore nothing is as simple as it used to be but not as petty as high school was. You live probably 500 miles away but can you feel love from that far away? Way intense. Here goes fate again messing with my head.