Had something really deep to write about and now as usual I can't seem to remember a thing. Something to do with purpose obviously since that seems to be the trend of my every thought lately. I guess the purpose of people and things in life. Everything in this world supposedly has a "purpose" in quotes because some things I still have yet to think of their actual purpose I mean in a food chain kinda sense. Some people I'm still scratching my head for an answer. Each friend I have i like to imagine in a fate sort of way has been sent to me the way that Mitch Albom claims in "The 5 People You Meet in Heaven". Each person is a part of my life to teach me something, to better myself, or just to be there a long for the ride. Someone who understands where I'm coming from or is there to hold my hand and tell me straight up "you're going off the path let's try to get back on" and show me the error of my ways. That's what I seem to really need right now but its up in the air as to which friend or family member I'm supposed to turn to that actually seems to know which way I should be going. 22 is likely the hardest year of my life. Between trying to find/keep a job, figure out what I'm going to do with the rest of myself, finding myself and my PURPOSE, and still maintain my sanity. All that pretty much makes my head spin on a daily basis. All these deep thoughts I write here because it just doesn't seem like conversation kind of material. Unless of course I'm at Yogen Fruz discussing my future with my aunt/life coach again. That was probably one of the best DEEP conversations I've ever had in my life and the evidence is tacked to my bulletin board in remembrance. The hard part is having so much to say in matter of opinion on how things should go or how you want them to go and how they actually play out. You NEED someone whos going to listen without interruption just soak it all up, take it all in. That's the hardest part I think for me. I'm an interrupter who hates to be interrupted because for some reason I feel like my point is somehow more important than whatever anyone else has to say which I know is wrong. What I'm getting at is I think everyone should have a life coach. It's so helpful and throws you back on track to whats actually important in life. Coming full circle everyone should have someone in their life that helps them with that. Find their purpose and stay on track with it otherwise why are we all here and whats the point in waking up every morning?