"getting over you..."

Hopeless
A single word that you would not expect from me, from me
I take it like it’s coming from an enemy
The scene was meant to be
I see it coming after all the worst of me would fall
Make this now or never
See it on my face I’m getting over you
I’m getting over you
The place it takes me now
Well is it far enough
I’m getting over you
Make this now or never
Countless
The moments I would kill to keep this day away, away
I see it coming after all the worst of me would fall


I've been quite nostalgic lately. In the neverending process of cleaning my room I found old pictures and stuff from high school. Made me realize the type of person I really was in high school. Definitely not the person I look at in the mirror today. I wasn't happy with myself but somehow convinced myself it wasn't my fault. I blamed everyone around me for everything and fed off arguing with those closest to me. Its upsetting to me now because I've grown to be so much more cautious of what I say and how my actions affect others. Its definitely a learning process that I'm still going through. I hate to be one of those people who actually regrets major parts of their life but if I could go back I'd do things differently.

The early 20s are typically the years people go about finding themselves. Who they really are and their purpose in the world. I think it goes with the lyric "two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl year after year". You can be with someone but your both lost souls who don't really know who they are and haven't specifically decided what they want out of life you can't really go anywhere. People who get married at such a young age and decide they found the person they want to be with for the rest of their life, I personally just feel like is a huge mistake. People change who they are all the time and can wake up one morning and realize you have no idea who the person laying next to you is. I just don't want this to happen to me. I feel like up until someone graduates from college they become attached to whomever has the same interests as them. After college you do the same thing but may realize the people you once thought you knew like the back of your hand are completely different and took a different path. Unfortunately I've experienced this and as badly as I feel about letting it happen there wasn't much to salvage the friendship that once was.

When one person gets married they transfer their focus in life from their friends, to their new spouse. What does a college student really have to talk about as common ground with someone the same age as them whos married. I'm not married therefore what will I have to offer as advice for someone who is. Especially when the divorce rate rises higher and higher every year which doesn't set an example for most people on what a successful relationship entails. Parents are supposed to look out for their children and advise them in their major life decisions but when your parents themselves can't stay together and be civil for even the smallest period of time how is that setting an example as to how a successful relationship should function.