doubles.

It's like I live a double life sometimes. Everything this year just seems like a burden. Theres the select few I can tell everything too then theres everyone else. Everyone else is typically the people I have to put up a front to be me in fear of hurting someones feelings and never hearing the end of it or causing unneeded drama.

Some people just click better with others. I've come to accept that. Some people are more considerate than others and some just decide to be with one person and isolate themselves. I think that describes the present situation pretty well. I've accepted it and come to the conclusion theres no changing it. I don't need certain people in my life for it to go on. If you stand in my way I'll likely push you until I can go on through. Part of me does feel sad though that I've lost someone that used to be important but the other part says why bother if I'm better off in the long run. I have the people that matter and the people who used to matter that no longer don't. Quantity never out weighs quality in my book. The quality of friend always means more. If your not helping me then you must be standing in the way, therefore GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY.

This double life will either go away or make me stronger and so far I think its making me go insane. The secrets eat a little of me away every day. If ignorance is bliss than I should be quite blissful, if only it actually seemed that way. Unfortunately its not. Knowing something and not being able to tell others has always been my weak point especially when its about certain people but whatever I guess we get over it over time.

I just wish my life was as simple as the movies... or as exciting as The Incredibles.