I feel the need to post. I'm just so overwhelmed with everything going on around me I can't think straight let alone do anything. Driving yesterday I was awful so distracted I surprised myself that I didn't get into an accident. The concept of 6 degrees of separation has always kind of mesmerized me. How people know each other through each other and sometimes you don't even realize how people know each other. Without Facebook seeing mutual friends between people who knows if you'd ever really know all the friends you have in common or be able to keep in touch with friends as easily as we do. I just discovered last night that a friend I've known essentially my entire life has a new girlfriend that went to prom with someone I went to college with. The world just gets smaller and smaller every day. It feels weird that I'll be leaving it all again soon enough. New friends, new environment, new classes, new advisors, new activities, new adventures, new reasons to be busy like I won't even believe & I'll think how much I hate it again and then realize how much more I hate having nothing to do and no purpose for each day & just go along with my ridiculous list of things to do. I'll secret love it but maybe not so secretly, I'll try to make an effort to smile every day and enjoy everything that going on around me because that's what life is about isn't it? Enjoying what you're doing and finding happiness amongst it all. Because if we're not happy than really why are we doing what we're doing? I guess I thought a few months ago I was 'happy' but now I don't even like to think about it. I feel like an outsider in something I came to know so well and its a bittersweet feeling. I miss it and wanted so badly to go back but now that I'm at peace I'm content with the way things are. Do I have regrets? Of course but to dwell on them only makes the situation worse. I say never regret anything that once made you smile. To think back, every day no matter how miserable I was on the outside I laughed at least once whether I wanted to or not and at the end of the day whether I was smiling or not I knew I made someone else smile. That makes everything worth it to me.