This whole unemployment thing is starting to take a toll. Psychologically it feels like a day you stayed home from school because you were sick but you just never went back. In reality thats what it is except there is no reason to go back. Every day is filled with nothingness which only fuels the depression I'm already facing. When my skin is already tan and makes me actually look Puerto Rican for once there is no reason to continue to lay out by my pool. The rain definitely reflects my mood. Last night's thunderstorms represented nostalgia and to only be waken up at 3am by terrible cramps in my stomach which tells me I clearly shouldn't have eaten that ice cream at 10pm. It seems as though all the jobs out there are for careers no one wants. Jobs that are assistants to the jobs people really want. For example a medical assistant is clearly an assistant to a medical technician but wouldn't that also be classified as a nurse? whats the difference? could one be use synonymously for the other? I rest my case. Now this isn't necessarily my problem at hand but one of the many jobs that seems to be out there causing me to wonder wtf I was thinking going to a 4 year school when I could have stayed right here in depressing Syracuse gone to community college or wherever for 2 years for medical training and nailed a job right on the head instead of my current situation which is basically being forced to get my master's degree because thats all people want to see is 2 crisp framed expensive pieces of paper hanging next to each other in an office ya know because one just wouldn't be enough.