Old Habits

Back into my old groove of things. Spending my days doing absolutely nothing. The different part about this time is I really with all my heart wish I was working. It's like a tease when you go to work for 3 weeks straight going going going all the time and then you stop and it just feels weird. Like someone put the breaks on but you feel like you should still be going but you're not. It's an awful feeling. It's like I'm being cheated out of something which if you look at it a certain way I am. This is my dream, my passion. Helping people realize their potential and helping them reach those goals is essentially my life's goal. I just know this is what I'm meant to do. I don't feel connected to my friends anymore. I'd rather be connected to my work. It's a selfish thing to say but in the end its a risk you have to take.